Sorry if I had to leave Couldn't keep it anymore Pretending I had changed the ways Fooling me had taken its toll I thought it'd passed I thought I had grown But it made its way right back to me Calling it a bluff But I had always known Maybe this ain't right for me Fell right through Lying to myself I found There's no escape I'd sink Into myself again Sorry if I made you leave Couldn't take your raining words Oh, maybe I deserved it all Losing wrong, am I really free? Yeah it was me I'm not lying I knew it'd be me All these years complaining Patching my cracks I knew it was failing, faking Maybe I just wasn't aware Or maybe I was too blind to see That this was, and the most that it could ever be Now I'm here finally living in my own skin, at peace I fought to dilute the very essence of my being For you and for a very, very oblivious me I'm sorry if you weren't healing I'm sorry it had to be this way But what life would it lead us if I made you stay And I never let myself go