And I'm feeling shit
Well I've been watching from my window every night
Been plucking up the courage to get up and win the fight
Well I've been
Watching and waiting I've been hating I've been breaking
I can't sleep my soul is tired
Now my eyes are aching body's shaking
Deliberating everybody's always snaking
And the problems I've been facing
Can't escape the way my veins are quaking
My anger's raging at the made up situations
Overtaking the berating
And the heartbreaking my mind's creating
I suddenly think to myself
That everything I ever knew was a lie
Im flipping the lid on my life
And I'm waving it off and I'm kissing goodbye
Fake smiling and whiling away all the time
With a tear and a sting in my eye
I'm tripping up thinking of giving up grip
On the vision that's getting me by
No longer expressing myself
Or dressing myself or trying to try
The messing is getting me stressing
I'm barely addressing the what or the why
Regressing retreating oppressing my blessing
And guessing and hoping to die
Each session progressing my lessons
Undressing the feelings that are making me cry
I'm feeling shit
Ohhh yeah I'm feeling shit
And I need to improve this bit but I'm feeling shit
Oh ohhh I'm feeling, shiiit
I'm feeling, I'm feeling
I'm feeling, I'm feeling
I'm feeling like a man who's never done anything right
My hands are sweaty and my chest is getting tight
I just don't know if I can make it through the night
I'm hoping to get a smoke in but I cannot find the light
You know I
Remember all the times when things were just ok
There was nothing on my mind and nothing stuck in my way
It's killing me being forgotten and feeling so rotten
I know that I'm stuck in the pattern of hearing my demons
And wasting my breath when I'm hoping and praying to keep them at bay
Knock, knock, there's nobody there at the door
I've finally got to the point where I couldn't care less
And it gives me more peace than before
I'm starting to say, it's going my way
I feel like I'm swimming ashore
Been shying away, from feeling ok
I'm ready to try and explore
That maybe just maybe there's hope I can do what I want
TiI get what I want from my soul and my mind
Cos I'm feeling the pressure descend and I'm finding it hard to ignore
I'm stripping it back and embracing the hate and the pain
And deciding I'm here and I'm driving the ride
And I'm living in time and not leaving it up to the luck of the draw
I'm feeling better oh
Yes I'm feeling good
HAHAHAHAHAHA
I'm feeling, I'm feeling pretty good
I'm feelingeeowwweeeowweeeowwww
HAHAHAHAHA
Word – that's a rap