Headlights passing tinged the scene with pink colors
That painted her still life on the screens of cinemas
Doves scraped off skies like cream would sing of us
While I stared at their bright time freezing wing flutters
I was melting so senseless, so dead to all things
But she anchored me to realism with her soft skin
Lent an ear to all my problems and let me crawl in
With a comfort not akin to what those other broads bring
It was autumn on the cusp of that December depression
When inertia taught revenge as a lesson
But it all started to unravel half a month ago
On a halcyon Monday when a coffee mug had broke
She was standing there with both her pale hands unmoved
With fear to match her absolute shock, all paid for
With a loud explosion of uncalculated magnitude
And green ceramic fragments strewn across the hallway floor
Tipped with secrecy and answers like
"I'm fine"
"I've just been such a klutz, I promise I'm alright"
And she went in the kitchen, flipped the light switch on
And I swear I saw her flicker in sync with the bulb
And so it goes
When you feel the strings unravelling
When the skin starts crackling and all you know
Has all begun vanishing, it's all off balance and
You fall and fall, you fall and fall
Staring at blue ripples of dim light up on the ceiling
Exiting a dream, while losing count of times it had repeated
I upheaved my face to see her silhouette in the room
She was on her phone, the glow was firing pestilent hues
I said something to break the ample silence
And she spun around startled slightly as our eyes met
The glow spiraled up like a spotlight catching diamonds
As her phone plunged with a thud that was seismic
But it didn't fumble from her fingers like she said in the moment
I could see it crystal clear how it really unfolded
It fell through her hands like they didn't exist
And phased through her skin like some intricate trick
So she broke down with sapphire tears streaming down
She was saying she was sorry and she feared speaking out
Scared of disappearing for good in an instant
She looked like she meant it when the weird petered out
We talked until normality had snuck into the bedroom
With a false sense of gravity that loves to misdirect you
She started sinking quickly through the hardwood floor
One, then two legs screaming au revoir
I shot my hand out to catch her and felt nothingness
A feeling that could not be captured with an simple utterance
I could barely comprehend feeling my lover dissolve
But chased the noise down the steps to see her slumped at the door
She was pushing herself up with hands that weren't there
Tears ran down partial cheekbones with scant auburn hair
And there were faint echoes of her voice flitting nowhere
As she mouthed the words "I'm sorry", in the choked air
It was cold, she was there and then she wasn't
No dramatic flair and not fully aware of what resulted
The door swung open, I saw birds of pink colors
For a while I stared at their time burning wing flutters
And so it goes
When you feel the strings unravelling
When the skin starts crackling and all you know
Has all begun vanishing, it's all off balance and
You fall and fall, you fall and fall