I tried to forget we happened, I tried to not think of you
But all my thoughts still take a shape and imitate the things you do
There's shades of you inside the lake, beneath the static of this moon
Can't shake the stubborn memories from our romantic interlude
Can't escape the melancholy as the spirals turning down
Where it's a bed of blooming orchid and a pyro burning flowers
It's hours that turn to weeks
Our dates replay in random loops
Upon the surface of these two vortexes
Gazing back at you
I'm just a fool who thought he was clever with plans in motion
Romantic notions who would handle rejection and withstand corrosion
(But I'm a) gossamer, web of cancer
Connections dismantled affection
(And you're a) haunted house of mirrors with scrambled reflections
It's a rampant infection of doubts, the clouds that veil my face
Shrouds of shadows that flit over me, a crown of pale light rays
It's the inhale and the punch below the memories I'm submerged in
It's the nice view from a month ago when everything was perfect
I tried to forget we happened, I tried to think of something else
I tried to drown the entire thing inside a drink but nothing helps
It's hell, affected mental health, tried to tackle the feelings
Take a sledgehammer to your pedastal, but I can't manage to swing it
('Cause I was) infatuated with you, it's that force of lighting tingle
It's that feeling of my heart exploding forth in brightened pixels
It's that feeling of losing that feeling, feeling like I fucked it up
The thoughts evolved, they're peeling off the ceiling tiles to run amok
Don't hear the silver linings, it's unbearable, it's bullshit
Having you here right beside me is the only scenario I'm cool with
I don't wanna forget, but I have to I know I should just move on
Delete the socials and our messages, then I'll be good with you gone
'Cause I know that just because I felt it, that doesn't mean it's real
I know the reasons you told me, but not the ones you keep concealed
I got too comfortable with you beneath that motionless moon
I just hope that as time oozes forward, I'll get over it soon
(Over it soon...)