For the last time I double down for this life
For the last time I wasn't made for this fight
On the inside I wasn't born with this right
Born with this right
Born with this right
Please don't get too comfortable
I don't think I have control
I've tried so hard to settle down
Remember December
You thought you had been given what I know
In a new spot I been resistant to let go
From the rooftops I might just jump if you say so
Jump if you say so
Jump if you say so
Burning all these photographs
I'm no longer holding back
Another voice I hear below
Told me I might die alone
Please don't get too comfortable
I don't think I have control
I've tried so hard to settle down
Remember December
Look to the ceiling
I can't even move
But I know it's the truth that I ain't by myself
And I know it's a problem cuz everyone around me's a ghost
And I might even be one myself
And I'm feeling so numb
Never imagined the end would have come at a difficult price
What if you didn't know things that I thought to myself
And I wasn't afraid of my life
And I know you too much
A little too well
Almost like we were just one in the same
Look in the mirror I can't even see who I am
Man, I can't even tell you my name
Maybe the pills were what kept me insane
Maybe I made it all up in my brain
I need control of my life by the end of the night
Told me I need to stay in my lane
Please don't get too comfortable
I don't think I have control
I've tried so hard to settle down
Remember December