Am I the mistake
The equation can't be solved
Are all the troubles a product of my narcissistic toils?
Faking joy while aimlessly carving a path
Which numbingly stains the soil as the aftermath
Burn our bridge
Douse the ground
Find more ways to tear me down
For I was lost
And can't be found
I'm so far gone I hear no sounds
Of calling out
Or crying out
Tonight I stray further
From the only soul I've ever cared about
A sacrifice in form of
Another momentary distraction
Makes us seem so separate - again and again
And every interaction shatters, each moment breaking you and me
Our fragments sink again to drown in this toxic misery
When blood is sought after
And laughter seems to disappear
I'll be looking into the hourglass
Hoping you'll still call me your dear
Is this what freedom is
Finally letting go
Flown so far away
Just to lose touch with our home
Eye for an eye
Soul for a soul
Further down the hill
The snowball rolls
Did I intend this mess
Or was it fate?
Has it been the worst mistake I have ever come to make?
Maybe it's true, I'm the only one in the wrong
Only you know the answer though I'm the one who tied your tongue
Only I could see it coming
The foreshadowing was true, I let myself slip away
For my insanity was due
It lurks and prees my every crooked crack
My mind contorts into a state of panic
Of ignorance, jealousy, rage ensued, forced onto me
A letter soaked in agony
From anguished times of constant tragedy
Self destruction lead by sympathy
To the agony in these words – I look back in shame