Life can be beautiful, sometimes it hurts One day we'll return to the Earth I'll burn into ashes, turn into dirt Circular patterns occur to learn what it's worth Each try and fail Still eats away at my iron will I hide my pride like a lion's pelt But either way I know I'll still feel Lonely inside a crowd Felt ennui for a while now Palm trees are fireworks To celebrate this dying place, okay I'm still healing from the cuts When you peel away the blood I don't love the way I feel some days But I feel the way I love Forgive me, I'm not what I seem Kiss me, I'm falling to pieces I hurt all the people that need me I killed all the gods I believed in Abandoned amputee Alone and cold on a bathroom floor Born below all the apple trees Mourning for what you had before The sunset above me is lavender I see phosphenes when I rub my eyes These people walk past me like I don't exist anymore While these pictures distort in my mind Porcelain skin Concealing the war that's within I'm wearin' my sins like they're ornaments Formin' two horns I adorn like a crown Thorns in my side Becoming so normal I forget they're mine Mimes Pierrot, dead sparrow heads in my tarot deck Eros pierced me with an arrowhead Always erudite in being scared of heights Terrified I'm skeleton-bound Feet on the ground but my head's in the clouds Never was one to just blend in the crowd Let it be known that we're desolate Destined to drown