You should know my mind gets turbulent
I don't like writing like this, because it feels too honest
But I watched a video about feeling anxious
And it suggested being more decisive
So I've decided to be honest
Turbulence
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You know when a plane shakes and everyone gets nervous
That's how I feel before almost any decision
Should I watch this show?
Should I send this text?
Should I share this link?
Write this entry?
Play this song?
Turbulence
My friend tells me she can't have a bad day if she watches the sunrise or set
And I yearn for an anchor so distinct
Something to instantly bring me back to myself
Everyone seems to have one
A habit or a hobby, something to save them from themselves
Maybe it's music, working out
A girlfriend or a boyfriend, something keeps them sane
Me? I turn to God, but when I think about God, I get turbulent
Am I doing this right?
He must be tired of hearing me apologize
I loved him this morning, how can I be so ungrateful now?
He's done so much for me, I cannot tell it all
Maybe I should play that song
Turbulence
These are the ramblings of an anxious mind
I pray for a day when I'm finally familiar with the peace
When it stays for more than a moment
And my mind slips back into the slot it was meant to be in
I call those moments synchronicity
When everything is in alignment
The world makes sense and I know my place in it
Everything seems brighter
My thoughts feel lighter
And I maneuver through life as fluently as everyone thinks I do
I even understand my past, how it facilitates my path
I smile and find it within myself to appreciate it all
Even the turbulence