Defensive, and all about pensive
Obsessive, through antithetical thought
It says a lot
But I didn't deserve the talk
I heard what was needed
But it's hard to feel that
'Cause it's been repeated
By shoes that leave clumps in the grass
Alstroemeria blooming through my chest
Attenuated fields never get their rest
I want it, I need it
I told you I shouldn't
I see that it's dangerous
Self centered conflicted illusively static saccadic eyed addict
Dug under subsoil
Conniving these stems of sophistry
I wanna know what I need
I discern it all, a story far from perfect
With agricultural verbs and nouns and prefix
I'll go away and I'll heed the words
The words that only I should say
I heard what you said
But I know what you mean
So I feel what you want to see happen to me
Alstroemeria blooming through my chest
Attenuated fields never get their rest
I deserve much more
I deserve much more than this
I deserve to say I'm sorry for the things I'm sorry for
I deserve to love myself again someday
I deserve much more
I deserve much more than this
I deserve to say I'm sorry for the things that I'm sorry for
I deserve to love myself again someday
Alstroemeria blooming through my chest
Attenuated fields never get their rest
I want it, I need it
I told you I shouldn't
I see that you're dangerous
Self centered conflicted illusively static saccadic eyed addict
Dug under subsoil
Conniving these stems of sophistry
I want to know what I need
I know what I need
I know just what I need
You know I'm just afraid
I went and shaved my head
I stared in the mirror before I went to bed
I stumbled down the street at 3AM
Cursing every little song that I wrote back then
And I'll try for the first time in a fucking year
After trying everyday for a fucking year
I threw the pills into my mouth
And I promise they could know me without all the doubts
Like I promised I'd be better back in the spring
I also promised myself I'd be happy
And I promised myself I'd get what I deserve
But now the friends in my life aren't friends I've heard