Old school corduroy Sipping goose with my lecroix Chopping lines up on the table Guess I'm tryna fill that void Real McCoy back in Cali Everyone know we dem boys When I'm in my city I'm like Kanye out in Illinois I don't punch in I'm just hustling Feds think that I'm unemployed Ain't no justice I don't trust em Look at what they did Floyd There aint nothing to decide Saying fuck the otherside Because I can't hate my neighbor baby Even if I tried See that hunger in my eyes Waiting for the sun to rise Lord knows I can't go to sleep with So much trouble on my mind Said I'd leave it all behind Put them substances aside But still I can't stop myself sometimes no Even if I try Now my homie smoking fentanyl Fuck it keeps me up at night Lord knows I can't go to sleep with So much trouble in my life I got money on the line And that duffel in the ride Baby I can't stop that paper calling Even if I tried Summer got me drowning in the heat I'm tryna keep my balance Running on this bridge Ain't nothing I could do to Kill this sadness You deserve a ring like Saturn I been tryna change my patterns -Time goes on I'd do anything to turn it backwards Said I'm better off alone Know when I told you that I lied Thoughts of you they jog my memory Stay running through my mind And I understand why you don't wanna see me said that's fine But no I can't live without you baby even if I tried Truth is hard to swallow Make me wanna crack the bottle Pop them pills Cause I can't sleep And wake up here alone tomorrow You remind me how I left you stranded every single time You felt abandoned Said I cannot fix it even if I tried So you left me at that motel And you told me book a flight Then you ghost me when I text you Just to show me what that's like Then you call me up the next day Just to check if I'm alright How come we can't even talk Without it ending in a fight Said I'm better off alone Know when I told you that I lied Because I can't cant go to sleep with so much trouble on my mind And I understand why You don't wanna see me said thats fine But no I can't live without you baby even if I tried Don't gotta act suspicious I can change said I'll be different All we need is money time a place to live And raise our kids in Swore that I'd make my dream Come true and that's been eating me inside I don't know if I could give this up now Even if I tried I don't blame you for the way you feel No every single time I kept you waiting chasing saving face I played you to the side Said I'm better off alone Know when I told you that I lied Because I can't live without you baby even if I tried Said I'm better off alone Know when I told you that I lied Because I can't cant go to sleep with so much trouble on my mind And I understand why You don't wanna see me said thats fine But no I can't live without you baby even if I tried