I said baby this is my curtain call
The outcome is really not my concern at all
I leave that all in God's hands
And I say that in good faith
Sometimes I deviate from what I should say
And that's just cause I'm human that don't make me any less
Man life rarely ever turns out the way we expect
If I ever give the labels a fraction say it was nice to meet ya
But ima I need that quarterback like ima wide receiver
I don't think I really need ya
Yes, that's just subtle exaggeration
I'm really tryna reach some heights beyond imagination
Feel like I'm damned if I do, damned if don't
Convos with Jay are we disillusioned I just don't know
Running from my nightmares while I'm chasing these dreams
From what I hear that shit is not what it seems
Won't be satisfied 'til you see my face on screen
Like were talking on teams
Or 'til I make your girl look like she on the cover of scream
Although this shit ain't easy they all wanna try now
Swear I'm literally messaging distributors right now
My shit ain't live when I said it was
And ima man of my word so that just irks me
Will they stick around or fuck around and desert me
Fuck it, this is Killa Cam the serial one from Milton Keynes
And if this is quarantine radio bring the milk in please
By any means I pray for this on my fucking knees
My niggas moving Ye throughout the west and leaving bloody leaves
Someone gon hand me a bucket please
The thought of failure make a nigga sick
Cause I know I'll be a miserable man If I'm never rich
If the tie is weighing heavy won't hesitate severe it
I be on my way
Self reflection got me seeing things twice
Where would I place my bets if I had couple chances at life
Who knows, but I know I'm not about to die
Looking back and tryna find the reason why
Why I didn't have the faith to be a man and just decide
See that there was nowhere else but up like walking on a slide
Like I didn't have the fucking chance to take the easy to ride
Parents gave me everything I asked for purely to survive
Don't address me as anything other than king of my city
Said ima need that 5 tatted on your skin if you're with me
And for my brothers next to me really I'd give my kidney
Round of applause to myself I just went and outdid me
How I do that shit
That's how I'm feeling nowadays
Another chapter you just turned the page
I showed potential from an early age
And now I need red carpets to welcome me at the pearly gates
Do I deserve a place
I won't let up until they hear me I'll be the first to say
I'll be the first to say