Woven deep within my subconcious silently it waits This shapeshifting bulbous mass of dark energy Is ready for the match to strike To ignite and invade, taking over me At the meer sight of The fuse has been lit, the trigger sparked Spectral convulsions in the dark The visciousness spreading like a venom through my veins Internal paroxysms make me .Hallucinate violent reactions These self depraving, Nightmarish visions in me Epileptic spasms in my minds eye And screaming silently This blade will cut deeper into The primal urge From life I diverge I will escape you Repulsive flashing images of destruction Split second frames before my eyes Hands to my face, seizing, cold fingers aching To expell these illusions I fantasize Exit the realm of reality Compulsion towards self-excavation Desecration and entropy Image ignites Combustion of the fire inside The hate in my eyes Cloaked by the night This disease in disguise Deeper I slice Cut you out I visualize cutting out the darkness within me Because the violence, it levels out the intensity These internal paroxysms, they plague my waking life Triggered by images that reflect the self-hatred inside That I have kept buried