I got ripped clothes and a bloody nose
And I'm so close to an overdose
Nobody knows the real me
Cos I'm a ghost and I'm hiding my real feelings
They think they know me but they dont know anything
I'm just a lost cause who got last thoughts, yeah
I'm just the shadow of the person that I once was
And I've been letting go of all my memories
Of who I used to be and how I used to feel
And my depression gets stronger the longer I wait, yeah
And the weight on my shoulders is too much to take, yeah
It's pushing me down to the ground 'til I break, yeah
The voices takes over controlling my fate
Feels like I'm dead but I'm breathing
Feels like I'm bleeding out but my heart is still beating
Wide awake so alive but I'm freezing
Winter season got me sick I'm sneezing
Yeah, things change...
I get that nothing stays the same
Even sunny days can turn to
50 shades of grey
Go from hot to cold, from snow to rain
From feeling good to feeling pain
I'll put a bullet in my brain
Cos when I'm dead I can't complain
So say goodbye
Cos this might be the last time
That you will ever see me
That you will ever hear me
I'm broken down and I can't breathe
There's no light so pardon me I can't see
My demons came for a visit now they won't leave
I try to cover up the scars so I wear sleeves
And all I do is sit inside of my basement
Contemplate my death through the problems that I'm faced with
Tryna fight addiction that I made from getting wasted
But the temptation is getting so strong and I can taste it
And sometimes I think about this music and I hate it
All i see it empty talent full of clout and getting famous
I compare myself to artist that I know are overrated
Don't you tell me its alright I'll be fine you can save it
I can't do this anymore, feel my heart becoming sore
Every time I close my eyes I am taken to a morgue
I dont really wanna die but I am rotting to the core
And the world is so cold treat my body like a corpse
Okay you win, I lose so kill me now
Lay me down deep until I'm underground
I just wanna hear silence It's my favortie sound
I can finally see my home theres no need to frown
So say goodbye
Cos this might be the last time
That you will ever see me
That you will ever hear me