Shaking on the plane Mercy in my headphones I guess that I was scared But I had a six-month window Liz was in the car Waiting at the airport I was unprepared To say goodbye Life got heavy, I got carried away I was in the middle of a summer of pain Didn't know the feeling But I wanted to stay in love Matthew had the coke Billy had the friends out Britney had the sweet, sweet smile That I could get my head 'round Frankie's in the night Pizza by the deep black water Bodies on the beach Cooking like a peach Either in my head Either out of reach Life got heavy, I got carried away Ran out of the pills, I was staying awake Didn't know the feeling But I wanted to break the ties Maybe in a way I push my feelings right down Looking for an easy fix to black them all out Maybe there was grace in all the ways I fell down So I could be face to face with where I was found Hey, no worries, couldn't do it again One too many, and I cannot pretend Found me a lover when I needed to find a friend When Liz is in the car Smiling at the airport She says, "I've come far, lots has happened" I guess it really shows How slowly we surrender I let God and I let go When I'm in Sydney, I remember