Waking up again without my phone My wallets gone and it looks like this isn't my home How do I end up spending my nights alone? When I'm blowing cash on strangers I think I know 'Cause all these people are taking me for granted (All these people are bittersweet) But I just let it happen so blame me I need medicine to pick me up My doctor said it's not good enough So I keep getting sick from smoking alone I need chemicals to wake me up 'Cause in my head I'm not good enough So I keep getting sick from smoking alone Speaking up again when It's not my turn Intruding conversations with pretty girls Talking to handsome men about what they earn And how they'll shower them with golden rings and pearls 'Cause all these people are taking me for granted (All these people are bittersweet) But I just let it happen so blame me I need medicine to pick me up My doctor said it's not good enough So I keep getting sick from smoking alone I need medicine to wake me up 'Cause in my head I'm not good enough So I keep getting sick from smoking alone All I need is some degree of selfish apathy All I need is some degree of honest self esteem All I need is some degree of selfish apathy All I need is some degree of honest self esteem