I kept another struggle, I know my family ties
I had to walk up from the shadow to another bubble
Returning back to me, with another lie
I know this shit still stings like a bee
Praise to the lord, for my momma's energy
Give grace to the god, that be living inside me
I know I live rent free, in your head, so to speak
Life is a test with no guarantees
Aint no way I got it cheap, voices going deep
When I talk about my past, having nightmares in my sleep
It made me harden up my soul, when I talk about it all
And no one don't deserve it, didn't reap it, gotta sow
All these thoughts I gotta keep, keep, keep keep
I never let my feelings speak speak speak speak speak
All these emotions digging deep deep deep deep
Remember days I couldn't sleep sleep sleep sleep
With your request that you made
You trynna get a settle, get the best out of me
I'm fighting with my trauma in the ways that I can
My momma won the custody and saves me from em'
Never ever got the best outta me, made my heart freezing cold
And we started from the bottom, that was all that we had
But Im lionhearted like my momma built me up for that
Ah ah, huh huh
Ah ah, huh huh
Ah ah, huh huh
Ah ah, huh huh
Aint no way I got it cheap, voices going deep
When I talk about my past, having nightmares in my sleep
It made me harden up my soul, when I talk about it all
And no one don't deserve it, didn't reap it, gotta sow
All these thoughts I gotta keep, keep, keep keep
I never let my feelings speak speak speak speak speak
All these emotions digging deep deep deep deep
Remember days I couldn't sleep sleep sleep sleep
Im to starting to remember, what I felt inside was anger
Against a man that owes me better
It made my momma to my greatest savior
Im starting to remember, why the winter so cold december
We will never ever be together, but mamma she's my greatest treasure
Greatest treasure
Aint no way I got it cheap, voices going deep
When I talk about my past, having nightmares in my sleep
It made me harden up my soul, when I talk about it all
And no one don't deserve it, didn't reap it, gotta sow
All these thoughts I gotta keep, keep, keep keep
I never let my feelings speak speak speak speak speak
All these emotions digging deep deep deep deep
Remember days I couldn't sleep sleep sleep sleep
Aint no way I got it cheap, voices going deep
When I talk about my past, having nightmares in my sleep
It made me harden up my soul, when I talk about it all
And no one don't deserve it, didn't reap it, gotta sow
All these thoughts I gotta keep, keep, keep keep
I never let my feelings speak speak speak speak speak
All these emotions digging deep deep deep deep
Remember days I couldn't sleep sleep sleep sleep
Starting to remember
What I felt inside