Sunk so deep you won't belive
I can't pressive what is over me
I know what you think when you say my name
Talk about me like Oh he change.
Another dope is up his nose
And I don't know if I can trust him
And the smell of alcohole is too much for me to go hug them
And it's hard to take, hard to watch, hard to look away.
But it is worst to be in the middle of this shit
Try to make up why to stay.
So I underestimate people, lie to myself
But I'm easy to see trough
Used to be so proud but take a look at these eyes
Take a look at me now.
(Everybody got a problem with me
But then again no one tell lifes easy
Now I get to watch where I put my feat
Some don't even want to look at me.
Every now and then I think back
If I took another choise where will I be at
Would mom say I'm proud of you and my dad want to guide me trough
And I do want to change, but I keep comming back to the same old same
Story line, well I write a rime about quitting shit for a better life
What the fuck is that, where's the discipline? this thing to bring out the bitch in me.
And did I make this song for the sympathy
I don't now what it is but I'm sick of it.)
Look into my nephew's eyes I see myself back when
I didn't care about nothing, I'll rather be alone for now, figure
Out, how to bring myself back down on the ground.
Cause now I am flying higher than I ever could imagine
And I was supposed to be scared of heights
Like what happened? I guess we change, some for the better
Some for the worse. I'm stuck somewhere between and it hurts.
Cause it's dark tonight I miss the sunlight I miss
Saying things like thanks I'm alright. when you ask
Me how I'm feeling. well I'm happy when I'm dreaming.
It's a whole other world in my head when I close
My eyes in my bed. Cause I make up places and people.
Replace myself if I need to.
Three little birds on my doorstep, I see what it
Means when I go there. Soo peacefull, so quiet, alone
But self relaying, I came to the point when I put
The mic down and said I'm done.
And with a life like this you might just feel like
Putting steel on your tongue.
(Cause I swear to good I seen suicides, I knew people who took the wrong
So rest in peace to the people I knew cause I know you can hear my song.
And I will be strong for me and you, do what they tell me that I can't do
In all your names I'm gonna fight, so I walk on the stage for you tonight
And when the light hits me I am gonna shine for you
Buttom line I'm a lie for you, they are gonna kill me to make us meet again
Cause I'm never giving up I aint leaving yet.
It's not for me no more, it's for all of us
I see you when I see you, I love you all)
Look into my nephew's eyes I see myself back when
I didn't care about nothing, I'll rather be alone for now, figure
Out, how to bring myself back down on the ground.
Cause now I am flying higher than I ever could imagine
And I was supposed to be scared of heights
Like what happened? I guess we change, some for the better
Some for the worse. I'm stuck somewhere between and it hurts.
Cause now I am flying higher than I ever could imagine
And I was supposed to be scared of heights
Like what happened? I guess we change, some for the better
Some for the worse. I'm stuck somewhere between and it hurts.