Running away from everything I fear And I wonder how I ended up here I don't deserve pity, and I don't deserve you I've left myself down in the dark With a tendency or curse of breaking hearts I've tried my best but it's no better than my worst What kind of man do you think that I am? How do I make you feel when I'm around Do you drown? Or do you hold onto the higher ground that I can't seem to find What do you do when you catch yourself living a lie I've found myself pretending everything is fine To give in and give up, or to adjust and suit Believe me, that is the question, the absolute Bury me Carry me But I don't want to have your sympathy My misery will forever make me hold the knife so close, but I will never push Because that's when it will make it all real I've let myself down again What do you do when you catch yourself living a lie I've found myself pretending everything is fine To give in and give up, or to adjust and suit Believe me, that is the question, the absolute I never thought I would end up here I was so hard on myself but I was always clear It feels like years since I have felt content What does that make me? What does that make me? Lay me down