10 Reasons I Could Never Stay: One: I found you first You were mine before anyone wanted you You were mine before the growth & the grooming And I've made you into what you are You don't deserve to leave me Two: Someone once told me to never make a home Out of someone who doesn't love me, but I am a refugee and at night I need saving And in the morning I have four month pregnant cravings For a love that only we make - by the afternoon I get homesick Three: We said silent vows as we stared in eachothers eyes And struggled through the sand just to jump in the ocean So we could feel a wave, so strong Neither one of us had the strength to pull out of You stuck with me Four: Remember that night when we were so drunk We poured our hearts into one another? As if they were so full with lust that love began to tip over You never really could sing, but your lips created a symphony One of the best I've ever heard That night you said, you were ready Despite all my fears of full commitment - that night I made a birthmark out of you I pressed you against my skin, delicately, yet You became permanent I remember you said you needed me Five: You taught me things about life and me That I'm not sure I'll ever truly believe without you, like How to love myself and How worthy I am and how deep I can get Before I ever let love inside of me And how sometimes, it's okay to collapse Sometimes, it's okay to relapse Sometimes, it's okay to miss everything you once were And sometimes, it's okay to dip in the past, but Only if you're ready to be the beautiful tragedy I'm ready to be the beautiful tragedy Six: Some nights I bleed over you I write our story until I get so tired that my wrist won't continue moving I haven't reached the ending Seven: My body has a habit of waiting up for you Eight: We hold hands tighter then an infant holds his mother Nine: I've mesmerized the melody between your every heart beat Just so I could sing it back if you ever get lonely, I Learned the gaps between your fingers Just incase you ever need a hand I made sure mine fit perfectly Ten: You promised we'd grow old together