I'm scared What if its not good enough? What if no one will listen? Is anyone there? Could you hear me scream If I press my lungs to your heart? My reality contorts and shifts all the time I hardly know what feels real and what's just a movie A silly, little movie I want to feel again How could I let myself merit such unjust feelings I can't remember the day you left It was slow, unforgiving I cried and tore my heart out How could you leave me? Was I not good enough? Did I do something wrong? I listen to ballads and waltzes They remind me of a life I never lived The wisp of lilac and vanilla scented air The golden fields, a happy home Just to wake up cold and alone I often wonder why We look up at the same sky See the same shades of blue So why must I suffer more than you?