Silent night, holy night The sounds of blanks, then china breaking I swear I hear Last Christmas playing In retrospect, yeah, here comes my mistake This unholy night's too silent Breathing down my neck, like violence The yuletide sure won't catch me feeling gay I, I'm sick of hearing you fight I, I'm locked in this room, phone in hand, 911 pre-dialled I can't hear through the sound of my heartbeat The taste in my mouth makes me sick Flashbacks in red like I'm dying all over (silent night) I feel their eyes on me all over, all over (violent night) Taste of blood from my teeth 'cause I can't unclench Hands shaking, head aching, makes no sense Losing control I'm a mess in a dress and these butterflies Have razors for wings and my bloodshot eyes See nothing at all I, I'm falling too fast to breathe My Christmas wish is to leave I can't hear through the sound of my heartbeat The taste in my mouth makes me sick Flashbacks in red like I'm dying all over (silent night) I feel his eyes on me all over, all over (violent night) I can't hear through the sound of my heartbeat The taste in my mouth makes me sick, I can hardly eat Flashbacks in red like I'm dying all over (silent night) I feel his hands on me all over, all over again (violent night)