I've been dreaming of this day are you okay
I've been shaking up been stirred this is absurd
Staring at the clock tick tock it goes non stop
I've been shaking up been rocked beyond what I brought
I've been taking pills that'll help me think straight
They will help me feel like I'm real like Im okay
Chasing after thoughts that popped up with no props
Make a tiny note it was time to just move on
Fingers on the trigger but the triggers got a safety
Say I'm something bigger this can quickly change Im crazy
Ya im gold ya im crazy ya im gold
Now i'm looking back at past that nearly shattered
By thoughts that kept me rattled
Like hey this shit is wild
My brain don't match my bod
My mind is starting to rot
I thought I made it clear
I'm done with all these thoughts
I've been thinking about some things that'll end me
They don't have a need to feed I am running
Get the fuck away I'm happy it's a new day
We don't need to stay my voice is finally my say
Seeing the shit that women deal with is endless
Men will talk you down say some real fucking dumb shit
Guess I'll never know a life like those fairy tales
No matter how high we fall we can all fail
Finger was on the trigger but the triggers gone it's crazy
Knew I was something bigger this can change it all
It all it's hazy ya im gold ya Im gold