I really don't think she meant to pull my hair
I'm caught in a fist fight it doesn't hurt I swear
No I promise she's not as bad as you may think
But it's true she's convinced me I'll never be anything
She made me cry as her cry for help by
Making friends with the enemy to control how I felt
Tastes like jealousy with my name in her mouth
My ego is dinner she's chewing so loud
But I think that I can muffle the sound
I live to learn
In pain as I do
I love to make excuses for you
Befriend the flame and you'll burn
I learned that from you
I love to make excuses
I really don't think he's fully self aware
I'm scared to tell him why he'll blame it on what I'm wearing
Besides he's a nice guy we've been friends for a while
But out of the blue he chooses to cross a line
Slow down pick up on my queues
This was not in my mind when I said I'd like to get to know you
But you know what you meant
The nice guys lament
I told you I loved you to you that means yes
Mansplain again your version of my consent
I love to hurt
I learn as I do
I learned to make excuses from you
Avoid the truth and you'll burn
You're always gonna lose
Unless you can yearn to break the use of excuses
I love to turn to girls who like to pull my hair
I learn to excuse abusers who are self aware
I'm learning from people who hurt me for years
But my biggest lesson is finally clear
You choose me because I'm your biggest fear
And I wanna say thank you because you got me here
For all that you put me through
I've used up every last excuse