I'm afraid of growing up
Yeah aye
I'm afraid of growing up
I don't wanna drop the world that I'm holding up
All this pressure got me stuck I be choking up
But the problem is time isn't slowing up
I'm afraid of growing up
Yeah by now you know I thought that I'd be blowing up
Staying on the grind gotta keep on showing up
But my people they already on the up and up
Really I'm sacred for my mom and my dad
Told em I'd buy them a car and a pad
But I'm still in debt life be moving too fast
Can't give em grandkids if I don't get a__
Roommate getting married and he moving out soon
Me I'm in the kitchen tryna learn to make food
Soon I gotta to get a nine to five to stay afloat
Until I'm 95 and when I die don't be a ghost so
I'm afraid of growing up
Even when I open up
I don't wanna f___ it up
I'm afraid of I'm afraid of I'm afraid of growing up
I'm afraid of growing up
Even when I open up
I don't wanna f___ it up
I'm afraid of I'm afraid of I'm afraid of growing up
Yeah I'm afraid of growing up
I play a show and still no nobody ever showing up
21 I thought by now that I'd be blowing up
I want the 303 to praise me when I say what up
Aye yeah I'm afraid of losing time
Every minute off my music feel like ruined time
I'm a criminal to craft and I'm doing time
If I'm really bout to do it now it's proving time
Aye yeah I don't wanna lose
My playful spirit by the time I'm twenty two
It's hard to hear it when they tell me change my mood
Why you call me immature when I got youth
Aye yeah on the holidays
I wanna feel like I still have reason to celebrate
Never change turn away from the phrase act my age
Imma pray everyday til I'm up stage I'll find a way yeah
I'm afraid of growing up
Even when I open up
I don't wanna f___ it up
I'm afraid of I'm afraid of I'm afraid of growing up
I'm afraid of growing up
Even when I open up
I don't wanna f___ it up
I'm afraid of I'm afraid of I'm afraid of growing up
I'm afraid of growing up
Everybody they thinking that I be rising up
To the occasion they patiently waiting for me to be famous
Take over the nation and win a few Grammies
Or Tonys with Emmys no Razzies try to get recognition
I be driven but that don't matter and all I got is conviction
No safety in music and ain't no net in my worth
I'm asking why do I do this I'm everyday back and forth
I'm back and forth on my bull
My horns are out and I say I'm working
I'm searching for steady work but nothing's working
Dreaming bout marquees packed seats jewelry Bentleys
Growing up I always told I always told myself that's gonna be me
Take me back to the days up in my hometown
Mama sang me songs and I'd play in a tree house
Was riding through the city like heathens
But now I'm drowning in doubt
I wanna make it to the TOP but I'm stressed out
Wish we could turn back the time
To when I could do anything and I had peace of mind
Back to the good ole days
When I wasn't overthinking all of my mistakes
I'll always be innocent cause I don't have a choice
Otherwise I can't me won't give into the noise
All I want is to be heard I wanna have a voice
Like how people listened when I was a little boy
Cause now everybody be laughing back at me
When I say I'll be part of history
Make a legacy raise a family
That's my fantasy but fear I'll be
Focused on work so I won't settle down
Forget about what my life's all about
I'm scared of
Growing up
You know I
Think too much
When I get older I pray I'll be good enough
I'm afraid of growing up
Even when I open up
I don't wanna f___ it up
I'm afraid of I'm afraid of I'm afraid of growing up
I'm afraid of growing up
Even when I open up
I don't wanna f___ it up
I'm afraid of I'm afraid of I'm afraid of growing up