They can't see me cry
Uh oh
Yeah
Paint a picture for 'em
Let's go
Yeah
Wipe the tears from my eyes, they can't see me cry
Hide the pain, crack a smile when I'm passing by
They think I've got it all together, tell me I'm the guy
They say "ndiwe une yese" but I'm dead inside
How can I look alive?
Pretending I'm better without you
When mama asked what she would do without you
I know I said I wouldn't let this love simply come and go
But I said that with my chest as if I had control
As if you didn't know I didn't love myself
I'd hope to look into the mirror and see someone else
I'd take my purpose and my dreams and put them on the shelf
To get some love and validation, all from someone else
And then to patronize you, knowing you could make your own decisions
'Bout your present and your future but I feared and overdid it baby
I ate it, kutoita kuzvidya
And now I'm in my feelings feeling karma zvichindidya
TBH I wasn't ready to fall
It cut so deep I really felt like I was losing it all
I was down bad on my back, my family thought it was small
Couldn't relate to how cold I felt in that trench of withdrawal
Applied the pressure and maybe that's why there's pain in my chest
When it comes to Mjolo I'm thinking "bafethu rest"
Cause what's the point of devotion and you trying your best
When she ain't ever coming back and she was only a guest
Wipe the tears from my eyes, they can't see me cry
Hide the pain, crack a smile when I'm passing by
They think I've got it all together, tell me I'm the guy
They say "ndiwe une yese" but I'm dead inside
How can I look alive?
Pretending I'm better without you
When mama asked what she would do without you
I know I said I wouldn't let this love simply come and go
But I said that with my chest as if I had control
As if I knew what God was planning for me
Now I'm stuck in acrimony
Heard them wedding bells again
The goal was Holy Matrimony
And I tried to get you back but you were cold
The freezer, but my heart for you's the stove
Now I'm running on my own
My lover left the room Joel sung of
Was it you, I gotta wonder
I thought it was so I was here investing in us major
Believed this was a fairytale till I became a stranger
The first month was a battle
I mean a motherfucking nightmare
I was looking to my future, couldn't see a light there
This outcome was everything I feared
I should've let myself enjoy it more instead of daily living so scared
That I would lose you
And now it's happened to me too soon
I would relish every time that I would have to choose you
I would drop it all for one more first date
And that goes triple for you saying yes and finally taking on my last name
I miss you
Wipe the tears from my eyes, they can't see me cry
Hide the pain, crack a smile when I'm passing by
They think I've got it all together, tell me I'm the guy
They say "ndiwe une yese" but I'm dead inside
How can I look alive?
Pretending I'm better without you
When mama asked what she would do without you
I know I said I wouldn't let this love simply come and go
But I said that with my chest as if I had control
This love has taken its toll on me
She said goodbye
Too many times before