Cutting every night to try to see what's inside
The pain goes on while the color fades from your eyes
I never asked for this, you fucking bitch
And no matter what I do, nothing ever fucking changes
I've tried to leave it all behind but I still can't fucking shake it
I peel back my skin just to find some fucking answers
Just leave me alone so I can get better
You can tell by the look in my eyes that I'm face to face with the void inside, and where I Reside in this dying light is where I hold onto you
I exist in two worlds but never really living in either
I sleep in a noose, swinging between hate and fear
Take a moment to remember the place
Broken heart, spilling out
Still filled with hate
It will never suffice
I just want to let go of this life
But if I do, all my memories of you are lost in time
I replay the images
Bleak, grey colored lenses
Hollow to everything
I'm sending up a flare
I turn on myself
It's too much to bare
Excoriation disorder is the leading misorder to try to fix what isn't there
In this dying light, I reside and I hold on to you
But it doesn't change the fact that I can't move forward if I keep looking back and every Fucking thing I do is only out of protest for losing you
But it doesn't change the fact that I can't move forward if I don't swing back
But if I let go, then all my memories of you will be lost in time
In this dying light
Cutting every night to try to see what's inside
The pain goes on while the color fades from your eyes