I know where this is going, I hope I fucking Choke
Fuck, I can't think straight
I can't see straight
Can't live this way
Crushed beneath the weight of all this shame
I can't escape
Pick apart the past until I lose my mind
Looking at myself through brand new eyes
I don't look back in anger...
I look back in shame, I blame myself
I wish it didn't take so long to see
That this isn't a good place to be
Burning as I walk through hell
Backs keep turning like a carousel
And I don't want to feel these things I have to feel
It feels like I'm not supposed to be here but I have to feel this
No I can't run anymore, the time has come to face it
No I can't run anymore, I have to try erase it
And I don't really wanna talk about what's going on inside my head
Honestly I'd rather be dead
And I know it, yeah I know where this is going...
And I hope I fucking choke
Pick apart the past until I lose my mind
Looking at myself through brand new eyes
I don't look back in anger...
I look back in shame, I blame myself
Yeah I blame myself for all of it
This weight cannot be lifted
Wish I never existed
And I really mean it
I hope I choke
And I don't want to feel these things I have to feel
It feels like I'm not supposed to be here but I have to feel this
No I can't run anymore, the time has come to face it
No I can't run anymore, I have to try erase it
And I don't really wanna talk about what's going on inside my head
Honestly I'd rather be dead
And I know it, yeah I know where this is going...
And I hope I fucking choke
I know where this is going, I hope I fucking choke