Right back at square one It's like I never left Like the night returned to morning Endless cycle of self Repeating over and over again Nothing But memories left on repeat They saturate my bloodstream They haunt me in my sleep A virus That I tried to deny Seeping from beneath Strangling my cries You don't know Oh, but I do How the silence fucking haunts you When you step from out of view Oh, now you'll see When my eyes go dark It was always me Now I'm right back at the starting line All my progress has gone Holding on to wasted time The hours turn to seconds I'm counting everyone I'll never find a savior Under my own loaded gun Addicted to the pain Except for my disdain Disgusted with the man who shares my face Standing in the mirror day after day Addicted to my own misery You only saw the end I saw where it began Self-destructive by my fucking nature Self-indulgence is the only way out Fuck! Buried underneath the weight of things I couldn't change