It's 5 am
Laying wired on the cold hard floor
My mind is racing
I'll be pacing through these halls
Like a prison cell
My brain is maimed
Nothing has changed
I'm stuck in my old ways
As I fight to live through
This darkened daze
Methodical dissection
Looking at me
In my reflection
Is a corpse
In remission
Old body
Same pain
Once the smoke had cleared
It revealed the masquerade
Can't feel my face
I feel sick and deranged
Another night of self loathing
The bitter drip
Down my throat
Asphyxiate
Watch me fucking choke
Emotionless like a machine
Let my consciousness fade
So I can forget that I
Am fucking living
Sold serotonin took my soul away from me
Been making myself bleed
No sympathy
I've swallowed happy just to find
Cold misery
An able body enslaved
Void of empathy
I let my world dissolve
Like the substance I've consumed it
Took me away from you
Carried your demons on my back
Am I afraid of what I'll never have?
Emotionless like a machine
Let my consciousness drain
So I can forget that I
Am fucking living
Sold serotonin took my soul away from me
Been making myself bleed
No sympathy
I've swallowed happy just to find
Cold misery
An able body enslaved
Void of empathy
We binge and abuse
Like it's nothing new
Watch me force it down my throat
Split my head in two
Watch me force it down my throat
Split my fucking head in two
Branded by my demons
With the image of death
To remind me that there's nothing left
Bathe me in the dirt
From my coffins cracks
To remind me there's no turning back
There's nothing left
Bathe me in the dirt
From my coffins cracks
To remind me there's no turning back
There's nothing left