I've been living this daily
With no peace no day dreams to save me
Get high cause I want to survive
Wish I could turn back the hands of time. X2
Born May 1985
10 months later my little bro arrived
Raised in a place where its do to survive
My mommy shopped food to put honey in our hive
I can see the hunger in her eyes
I can see that something wasn't right
She taught me how to rapish up my first ticket
She told me watch my back and be smart with it
And I wish that I could take you there
To a place that my brain takes me everyday
I can smile but it still won't take the pain away
I could try but remain in this lonely place
From a child I've been raised in a soldier way
Mommy didn't ramp she called us the krays
No jokes she showed us the ways
I've been living this daily
With no peace no day dreams to save me
Get high cause I want to survive
Wish I could turn back the hands of time
X2
Mommy couldn't cope so she turned to drugs
But auntie Tina give us hope she was there for us
I was raised on the roads wheres its rare to trust
Now my hearts been broke now i'm scared to love
An I might seem closed until I open up
Feel the weight of the struggle Ive been holding up
Been betrayed by a cuddle and a heartless hug
I drink pain from a bottle till my heart feels numb
Cause I came from the bottom of this bottle of rum
Ain't changed from a young un Ive been stuck in the slums
Grey days up in London ain't no summer for us
There trying to take aid they want my brother in cuffs
And I just came home this ay nothing to ask
Like the court don't know how a suffer does
Dis is poor home grown but moms love was enough
So I want to give her more than shes giving to us
Ive been living this daily
With no peace no day dreams to save me
Get high cause I want to survive
Wish I could turn back the hands of time
I don't want to feel this
I don't want to seek this
I don't want to hurt no more
I don't want to be this
I don't want to feed this
I don't need to fight this war
Cause im trying to be somebody
There's nothing I fear that can cloud it
I'm trying to be somebody
Need to get on up
Need to get on up now.
Ive been living this daily with no peace
No day dreams to save me
Get high cause I want to survive
Wish I could turn back the hands of time X2