It's time to get real
Look in the mirror and I hate myself
And I throw up 'cause I think it helps
Skinny waist, skinny face, skinny taste
Hell, I keep tryna be skinnier just because skinny sells
My parents didn't give me any skinny genes
So I can't f***in' fit inside these skinny jeans
Don't get me wrong, I'm pretty proficient at many things
But loving myself is not one
Bright ideas fill my mind
But I can't bring them to life
Why am I so mean to me?
Nobody knows it
Why am I so mean to me?
If I can love you selflessly
And meet your every other need
Why am I so mean to me?
I get bored when the night gets late
So I go out and I make mistakes
How many more mistakes will it take to change?
'Cause every time I wake up hungover, I'm covered in shame
I feel gross so I keep looking for pain relief
Acting like someone that I was never made to be
If love is patient then why does it run away from me?
Or maybe I'm the one that chose to leave
Bright ideas fill my mind
But I can't bring them to life
Why am I so mean to me?
Nobody knows it
Why am I so mean to me?
If I can love you selflessly
And meet your every other need
Why am I so mean to me?
I know Your love's not scared of my mistakes
When I said yes, You pulled me from my grave
And I need courage more today than yesterday
God, teach me to be brave
Why am I so mean to me?
Nobody knows it
Why am I so mean to me?
If I can love you selflessly
And meet your every other need
Why am I so mean to me?
Why am I so mean to me?
I know I hide it
Why am I so mean to me?
If I can love you selflessly
And meet your every other need
Why am I so mean to me?
Why?