Am I really alone in this?
My brother and sister have others of significance
I just wanna be touched by another set of fingerprints (mmm)
It's not this hard usually
But this is Mom's first birthday since her eulogy
And I've been feeling like there's no one gettin' through to me (mmm)
How can I be the life of the party
When there's a funeral inside me?
No one told me it gets this hard
And I don't see the signs that it's slowing down
And God, I need a Savior to help me out
Someone who can stop me before I drown
Oh God, be the life of my party
Tell me there's more than this
Lowering standards and drinking never do the trick
And neither does getting validated from a wasted kiss (what a waste of my lips)
It's not this hard every week
But God, it feels like it's getting shorter in between
The days when I'm good and the days I'm tearing at the seams (mmm)
How can I be the life of the party
When there's a funeral inside me?
No one told me it gets this hard
And I don't see the signs that it's slowing down
And God, I need a Savior to help me out
Someone who can stop me before I drown
Oh God, be the life of my party
I don't see the signs that it's slowing down
And God, I need a Savior to help me out
Someone who can stop me before I drown
Oh God, be the life of my party
I want it back, the life that I had
And everything that I gave up for cheap thrills
'Cause it's not really a party
If you're not invited and I'm just hiding
I know You'll bring me to life again
'Cause I'm sick of the bingeing and the man I've been
I'll turn around, admit that I'm scared
'Cause it's not a party without You there
And I don't see the signs that it's slowing down
And God, I need a Savior to help me out
Someone who can stop me before I drown
Oh God, be the life of my party
I don't see the signs that it's slowing down
And God, I need a Savior to help me out
Someone who can stop me before I drown
Oh God, be the life of my party