I ripped out the pages that reminded me of her
I know that i hate myself don't need to see the words
I remember i had blamed myself
For every time she hurt herself
It happened with the first but with the second it was worse
The deeper cut my feet are stuck and sink into the earth
I'll never be good enough that's something i have learned
Crazy how the coldest person left me with these burns
And then in my time to heal it's like there's people taking turns
Just to slow down my progress
I convinced myself that everybody is dishonest
I am no exception broken hearts and broken promises
Follow me traumatic memories are always haunting me
Don't pick up the blame to pour it onto me
Like i always do
I'm not mad at you
Because i been moving on and showing gratitude
I been smoking tryna fix my shitty attitude
Numbing any feeling in my body through and through
And my memories are lacking any detail
So i know that it's working
I got a woman that i love and treats me better for certain
But the anticipation of finding what's under the surface
It fucking kills me
But more because she doesn't deserve it
So love me
Tell me that i'm pretty
Know i'm needy
But i need it cause i feel so god damn ugly
I hate the attention
Then as soon as it is gone
I feel like not a single person cares about me
I fucking hate the way that i ruin everything
Cause i can't control my anxiety
I'm selfish but i'd do anything that you need me to oh the irony
Oh the irony
Oh the irony
Oh the irony i wanna live with you
But will you die with me
I spend this time with you and if it's wasted
Then that's fine with me
I wanna cherish it
I wanted you to know that you can cry to me
Oh the irony i wanna live with you
But will you die with me
I spend this time with you and if it's wasted
Then that's fine with me
I wanna cherish it
I wanted you to know that you can cry to me
And i hope you stay for a little while
And take your time to leave
So love me
Tell me that i'm pretty
Know i'm needy
But i need it cause i feel so god damn ugly
I hate the attention
Then as soon as it is gone
I feel like not a single person cares about me
I fucking hate the way that i ruin everything
Cause i can't control my anxiety
I'm selfish but i'd do anything that you need me to oh the irony