There's no beauty in your flower bed I wish I was dead Swing Low Chariot This place don't feel like home I feel alive When I'm all alone Swing Low Chariot These words you'll never know I can't face this on my own Maybe I'm the distant one And maybe I'm at fault Can't carry the burden Of this anymore I'm the distant One Absent mind, absent heart This is all my fault Wearing our scars on our sleeves and our hearts Falling for you, falling apart I am the distant one Because I became infatuated with your beauty Like I want your ever consuming presence in my life And even though you're gone Every word you've ever said to me I still find myself holding onto The very thought of you not knowing how I feel is tearing me in two And it hurts all the same Because I lie awake at night clutching my chest in pain Trying to understand this mess that's in my head, and wash it all away I still listen to your favourite records every single day In a hope that I'll find a sign to tell me what that the Love we had is real and I'm a fool for trying to throw this away Your smile, oh how I miss your smile You could outshine a thousand suns And I can still feel your hand in mine, but I can't keep living a lie Walking the razor's edge, I can't keep living a lie Exposing our fears and our scars, Just trying to love again(Expose our fears, expose our scars)