I don't want to stay here I want this feeling to leave I'm still learning All the same things Again and again I still haven't gone where I've been Deflect Misdirect It's hard to get yourself to want to reorient I've grown so impatient Since I stabilized It feels like a death to sit still So I distract to feel alive It stays the same I used to sit with the tension but it never changed It's hard to remain It's hard starting famine in a field of grain ♪ For every hand reached to heaven's high I'd wait my whole life for a sign Every time I stood mystified The purple always faded back to white It'll take my whole afterlife To learn how to abide It's in the waiting I don't know why It's hard starting famine under festival lights