I woke up and felt like I was fifteen again Another morning in the dark and rain Some old attendants, my darkest thoughts, and me I felt the asphalt slip beneath my feet I spent the whole year trying to repair my health I've got a problem with myself I'm trapped in my own hell I'm always tired and it feels like nothing helps And I hate it when I talk It drives me up a wall I'm not suicidal I just need some sleep Don't fucking mind me I think I'm drowning someone pull me out I just need to eat please don't lock me up Close my eyes and pretend that I'm not here Maybe this time I'll finally disappear I'm really hoping I'll be someone else next year Don't fucking mind me I'm fucking happy