Somewhere inside me, there's a war that I'm not over
Pulling at my own sanity
I still don't get it, am I victim or a soldier?
'Cause everybody's waving at me
Surrounded by the deafening sound
Of no one ever slowing down
The news fire like bullets on my feed
And every time I turn off anxiety
Awakening dependency, it's hard to conceal
You're tellin' me how this will work out
Better tell me, what's this all about?
My body is just trying to breathe
While you wanna tell me what life means
Why'd you keep me chasing your ideals?
None of this has ever become real
This wearing battle is now coming to a showdown
And we both know what that means
You open fire, I am bulletproof, I scroll down
Defeat you with my short-term memory
Now all your words that get me down
Fade away and peter out
Like broken echos caught on repeat
I know you'll challenge me again
I'll never fall under your spell
No enemy is harder to beat
You're tellin' me there's no room for doubt?
Now I'll tell you what it's all about
My body is just trying to breathe
While you wanna tell me what life means
Why'd you keep me chasing your ideals?
None of this has ever become real
My body is just trying to breathe
While I'm moving like a numb machine
Wonder if I ever have been real
Won't somebody tell me what I feel?
Oh, bring me back, reanimate
Feeling every step I take
A new-found freedom's starting to beat
Yeah, my body's learning now how to breathe (gonna find out)
Oh, to understand what life means (time to break out)
If all I've ever dreamed about becomes real
How could I not trust myself to see? (yeah)