Blank face, emotionless, anxiety renders me useless And i'm stuck between a rock and a hard place Six feet deep, feeling guilty over past mistakes I'm burnt out, the light in my eyes flicker The anger pent up fucking grows bigger And I feel comfort in downing this liquor Till I feel it slowly tear up my liver Depression will run its course till i'm dead Till i'm numb enough to know there's nothing left A living corpse untill I wait till the end Does it ever get better? No I just pretend In my head no one else can relate In my head I don't see the better days I'm seeing so many others happy And all I ever wanted was a taste Happiness never came easy Longed for that feeling believe me It's hard to find i've been searching my whole life I come out empty handed every fucking time What's the point? I'm tired of trying Misery is much more inviting No more hiding, these smiles aren't sticking Hope is slipping, optimisms fucking missing In my head no one else can relate In my head I don't see the better days I'm seeing so many others happy And all I ever wanted was a taste The color nothing, i'm deadly dull Lack of serotonin is the result Feeling the steady decline Manic episodes at an all time high