The anesthetic never set in and i'm Wondering what the hell i'm doing here My body's giving out on me Despite the pills and all this fucking therapy The anesthetic never set in and i'm Wondering if i'll ever feel alive again I'm sick, i'm spent and i'm wearing thin But I don't want this, why is this the life I live My body's giving out on me Despite the pills and all this fucking therapy As I sit here in my hospital bed, It smells of alcohol and dead skin, My mind is rotting with each passing second As I riddle with my depression, all under my descrection The anesthetic never set in and i'm Wondering if i'll ever feel alive again I'm sick, i'm spent and i'm wearing thin But I don't want this, why is this the life I live The anesthetic never set in and i'm Wondering if i'll ever feel alive again I'm sick, i'm spent and i'm wearing thin But I don't want this, why is this the life I live My mind is rotting with each passing second As I riddle with my depression I've given life to this grief that I couldn't understand Slumped heavy and dug my line in the sand Lamentation that's all that could grow The doubt you planted i've made it my home Like the flowers outside my spirit is dead Took out the dirt and I made this my bed The anesthetic never set in and i'm Wondering if i'll ever feel alive again