Jaded and drained, hollow and chained To loss and heartbreak, I'm not the same We hurt ourselves on the outside To snuff what constantly kills us on the inside I'm still stuck in this rut Existing in that in between Wishing I wasn't so empty Coming apart from the seams Everything gets so tedious, it always feels the same The older I get, the lower I sink, and I don't think that'll change So tired of wasting my efforts, attempting to blend in I don't belong here, and maybe I never did Does growing up have to feel like this Will I ever get back what I missed? Self medicate to help me forget, I've made my bed and I'll die in it I shouldn't have worn my heart on my sleeve I shouldn't have kept you so close to me I just need space Anger takes shape You're a memory I wish I could erase