Given up my time
To give you what you wanted
Not enough, you still latch onto me
Until I'm weak and feel sick to my stomach
Wide awake, I can't sleep
Until I've worked out what's holding me back so I
Just retreat until I fall right back
Into the trap of seeking something complete
What I want from what I do and what I hear from you
Is what will bring me down, bring me down
We work to fill a hole that we created to absolve ourselves
From working it out, much too proud
Instant gratification
I cannot abide
A deep void in the nearby future
I just can't hide
Know there's only one road
You don't need directions, just go
Feet feel cold to the stone
Don't let it sweep its way inside you straight to your bones
It's not exactly the way I planned
To spend my time with you
You swore
Endlessly chasing the way I felt
When the finish line was in view
Never been in my possession
Wish I would have started to question
What is it I placed a bet on
At the cost of all my predilections?
Is it really safe to follow
A figure I can't reach?
Some truths are hard to swallow
Feeding a well-fed leech
Know there's only one road
You don't need directions, just go
Feet feel cold to the stone
Don't let it sweep its way inside you straight to your bones
It's not exactly the way I planned
To spend my time with you
You swore
Endlessly chasing the way I felt
When the finish line was in view
With the end in sight I realise now
The more I work the more I hunger
I don't know how long I can keep this down
Am I privileged or do I suffer?
The days grow longer
The nights get darker
I am my own stalker
It's never enough to gratify me
Float in a flock full of sheep
To get skinned and bleed in the creek
Break the ground when I fall
But not as bad as the cracks in these walls
Fail and the Earth is undone
Bear me to the flames of this sun
Drink deep of the brazen sky
I wonder when and I don't know why
It's not exactly the way I planned
To spend my time with you
You swore
Endlessly chasing the way I felt
When the finish line was in view
I need more
It's not exactly the way I planned
To spend my time with you
You swore
Endlessly chasing the way I felt
When the finish line was in view
Ultimately, it is the desire
Not the desired
That we love
Ultimately, it is the desire
Not the desired
That we love