Decades of isolation Trapped in a body and mind overtaken By all the shit I thought I'd outgrow All of the moments that have stained my soul The moments where I find Texture and definition Memories I spent, every day hiding in Where do I start? Where do I end? The line that I blur No longer exists The prodded pendulum swings without intent Anger turned inward Finds ways to survive Psychosis avoided through averted eyes I do not see, so I am blind I do not feel, so I am fine Joy and peace are wasted on me (wasted on me) I shake when I'm awake And I shiver in my sleep The floor is never too far to fall on Hell and my head have a lot in common Blood runs cold with fear No one will mourn you here ♪ My mind is a loaded gun And all of its damage can't be undone Where do I start, where do I end? If this is the entrance, where is the exit? Sniveling little fuck up Nothing is ever my fault Protect my weakness, no matter the cost Look at me motherfucker Feel me underneath Notice me in every nerve Giving everyone less than they deserve A dormant madness with meat in its teeth A swallowed tongue gives way to relief Joy and peace are wasted on me (wasted on me) I shake when I'm awake And I shiver in my sleep The floor is never too far to fall on Hell and my head have a lot in common Blood runs cold with fear No one will mourn you here ♪ No one will mourn you here