It's been so long since I've lost myself I try to hide it but I know it shows I cut myself off from reality And slipped away with the undertow It's so easy to be held down by the weight of doubt Add up the days since I saw you last And burn from the inside out The hourglass has cracked; still time drags on I'm sick of living my life in spite of you I'm sick of losing sleep I wish that I could try and tell the truth Instead of lying through my teeth Running through all my thoughts on me and you A cycle on repeat Let the rotations cease and finally see: The only one that I've been losing here is me You watched me slip, you let me sink And I fell out of reach Your hands were tied But mine were free to ruin everything that was good around me Wounds heal in time But this hate inside is mine to keep My mind is a sinking ship beneath the empty sea My heart is a burning home But you're not what I need This isn't what I need