At the crux of it, everything I have These feelings cold as stone The everyday tyrants of a better life I never feel they will ever leave me alone I have only to fear fear itself But I have everything to lose How funny that the fear we own Is the one we get to choose Why can't I choose something more? Instead of fraying away at my mind It's like my greatest fears at which I used to laugh Are always by my side I'm not scared of dying, more so of living As for once I've everything to lose This happiness and morality Infecting everything I can't do This feeling inside It's like a thickening pain The bleeding inside The blood in these black veins Just a moment alone, enough time with myself When I can't bide my time with anyone else This bleeding of thoughts, and broken memories Is drowning in blood that I never need The feeling inside, it's thickening pain Anxiety inside of me I hope I don't feel again The feeling inside It's a thickening pain The bleeding inside The blood in these black veins