The lights were everywhere and I stood by the crash They told me if I stayed that I would never forget But you were in there; tell me, how could I want that? So I stood right there; they couldn't force me back Because no one can hold me back but myself If I can do this without you, I don't need their help The time we waste; can't get it back The faith we lose; can't get it back Can't get it back And every day I see him in the mirror I want to crush his heart, I want to break his jaw Cause neither of us deserve to be where we are Cause neither of us deserve to be where we are I never failed anyone as hard as I failed you And let's be honest, I don't deserve any better No I don't The time we waste; can't get it back The faith we lose; can't get it back Can't get it back When your faith looks a lot like fear When your faith looks a lot like fear When your fear looks a lot like guilt So don't tell me my faith isn't there Don't tell me The time we waste; can't get it back The faith we lose; can't get it back Can't get it back We're going to spend years doing this In a place where we're too small To read the words that tell us who we are We blindfold our own eyes We reach in the dark for one another So desperate We shake each other hard enough to kill And we repeat and repeat and repeat the same question: Will you see god?