Cigarettes after sex, to compensate for our regrets
Fill the void with nicotine and colder kisses that aren't so sweet
I've been depressed, because I don't know how to express
This wave of emotions that's crashing right over my head
Tried getting it off of my chest but my life is too much of a mess so
I fill it up with cigarettes and way too much meaningless sex
Darling
I just wanna feel something for once
'Cause I'm numb, yeah, I'm numb, oh, I'm numb
Oh, I
If your really the one
Then I'll run, yeah I'll run, oh I'll run
Oh, I
'Cause I'm way too insecure
To say just how I feel
How can I love somebody else
When I can't even love myself?
Last time I saw you
We had sex in your bedroom
With your parents in the next room
Now I don't think the like me
Lately this anxiety's been getting worse and heightenning
So I'll suppress with alcohol and cigarettes
Because I always
Blackout, get drunk
I'm with my friends we're screaming
"Fuck love, love drugs"
It's 4 a.m. and we're still going strong
All night long and I don't even like partying anymore
Oh, I just wanna feel something for once
'Cause I'm numb, yeah, I'm numb, oh, I'm numb
Oh, I
If your really the one
Then I'll run, yeah, I'll run, oh, I'll run
Oh, I
'Cause I'm way too insecure
To say just how I feel
How can I love somebody else
When I can't even love myself?