You keep me smiling but you laughing at my first name I thought you changed but we always tryna live same Not a chance but you somehow coming back And I never thought a miracle would ever come to pass Hear me out 'cause you're always on my head Every day, every night and every breath When you're gone I kinda wished I'm seeing death Now I'm out here overthinking if I'm always getting tested I never thought that the day would ever come I'm Smoking weed, I'm getting drunk and having fun It's never fun when you're always on the side And you're deep inside your mind before she fucked another guy Yeah You wanna understand my pain right Had to take an acid just to go and stand life I've been feeling pain cause I'm never alright Tried to take it slow I am here all might You could say I am weird Living life at second gear Tried to go and OD adderall to go and end the fears I've been never feeling peered where's the family that was here I could go and make it better 'cause no one would even care You could never see me on the low shit I've been so maintained I'm really thinking I got motion People always playing games I'm out here having notions I don't wanna take it slow I wanna see the ocean Right Swimming with the fishes but I'm not your type I don't wanna another I just want your sight I don't wanna die but I will take flight I won't make a promise but tonight's my night You keep me smiling but you laughing at my first name I thought you changed but we always tryna live same Not a chance but you somehow coming back And I never thought a miracle would ever come to pass Hear me out 'cause you're always on my head Every day, every night and every breath When you're gone I kinda wished I'm seeing death Now I'm out here overthinking if I'm always getting tested