It was meant to stop But I still feel these lacerations Cut me in half and starve my left side mind, Tearing me apart, I'm becoming untuned, Can't run and hide, no time for licking the wounds I've sharpened my teeth, now I've got the claws to match, And hardened my skull 'cause I'm anticipating the next attack, But the claws won't retract, and my teeth cut my tongue, Now I'm prepared for a battle that's not even begun, Because if time heals all why the fk am I scarred? My sense of who I am gets twisted til it breaks apart, It's a lie that I'm fine but I'll still carry on, 'Cause these wounds have broke my nerves and left me numb, It's left me numb These wounds have left me numb I felt it shape and change me Renew my personality Is it me evolving or contracting disease? Pull yourself together, it's not fair, I've got to live this way If I let this fester god take my life away, Trauma made me bleed now depression's the infection, No amount of sorrow will make this ok, No saving me And further down the hole I go, Catch me chasing my tail and howling at ghosts, Why is everything a threat, in my head? Panic spreads, faster than a shot of lead, Filled with dread, No licking the wounds