Lost in my own delusions the mud the walls this shit to plea For a new beginning a new transition to see Hesitant to cleanse my brow my fallen wasted life Emit this overconsumption they patiently wait to kill me As these stabbing beads of sweat press against the back of my neck Hesitant to wipe them away my fear of shivering heat waves Consuming me this warmth pushing up from within my gut Don't tell me how to breathe with your heal in my chest If not for my hands to verify truth, my eyes might have been Misguided by you; lead to believe you, oh this confusion And that reminds me Somehow I've found this will to stand before you I'm mirrored by my inability to be Embrace the fold Luring me in; a seductive way to breathe In this state of analgesia, designed specifically, suggesting a deterioration Identify what's taken over me In its attempt to control me, I fail to detach from myself This time, I've got to find a way out, now This time, I've thrown it all away, I'm down now This time, I can only watch and wait