So many wrong ways, so many scars So many empty days into this world of grey I clench my hands, standing on edge, now isolated With no redemption to be found I've wasted so many words I've grown into the realm of lies I have no purpose or glorious goals To lead my soul God, tell me why I have to face This state of slow disintegration So many gestures, so many nights Trying to fight my fears, to delay misery A very last time before I die I let it go away and I just give up once again All my expectations, all the lives I could have dreamt of All of this will turn to dust, scattered in a wind of pestilence A random shift in suffering scales, a vanishing grain of sand Into the sea of nothingness, I've lost all hope or faith I fall deep into oblivion, a wish to not share the pain I'm far beyond all denial and vain negation I desecrate the foundations of my own existence I'm lost into the purest darkness I suffocate under the weight of grief and deception I've wasted so many words I've grown into the realm of lies I have no purpose or glorious goals To lead my soul God, tell me why I have to face This state of slow disintegration Tell me why we all remain Engulfed into sheer emptiness I cannot see the light beyond